Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Moharram

it was my first moharram at mehrauli...watched tazias and juloos......the enthusiasm and dedication of people while carrying the tazias and the emotions associated with the martydom of Hazrat Hussain pbuh on this day of Ashrae.....tazias i was told are replicas and depict lot of things metaphorically....like a symbol of hand...called Panja depicts the five important members of the martyred family....Alm depicts the flag they used to carry with the army....tazias design and the effort went into making them said it all ,about the devotion and passion associated with the martydom of innocent people at karbala, among the believers ....while everybody was seeing the juloos and being a part of the fervour.....i wondered that hazrat Hussain pbuh sacrifised his life in the name of Allah and for the just cause....what we should have carried forward were the teachings and the temperament that we should stick to what is right...come what may.....but we ended up drawing lines......











Tuesday, July 28, 2009

azaadi aur patange....

....so the independence day is here round the corner and purani dilli is coming back to life....with shops of kite sellers coming up from hauz qazi to farash khana...its a colourful mayhem these days......colorful kites of various sizes and motifs.....with the special maanja and dhaaga.....people suddenly opening shops as puraane bareliwale....to increase the value of kites.....the activity will gradually increase with the 15th August approaching.....and now with the metro connecting the Shahjahanabad with the rest of the city, the business is going to be brisk.....people throng the purani dilli to buy kites...searching market all through the day for good bargains and deals....finally buying a good amount of kites and maanja.....and culminating the trip to purani dilli with nice delicasies.....it has always been like that.....we had a huge house....and its terrace used to be turned into a colourful chirpy battleground on 15th August....when people would wake up from the slumber and will gradually start flying kites....then would follow the paich....the fight across the other roof to cut each others kite.....and then the running behind the kite cut in the fight......oh what fun.....the victory of some kind.....by evening the whole sky would be filled with all kind of kites....the bollywood ones, the patriotic ones, the glitzy ones......the day would be incomplete for we purani dilliwalahs if good food is not prepared....after all the happiness is incomplete without a sumptous meal....so ammi and tai ammi would prepare some nice delicacies....biryani...keema...paranthe....n it would be served there on the terrace with all the bonhomie.....like a picnic....gurls were not behind when it came to flying kites....thats the beauty of a joint family.....you are never under estimated by anybody....and are always given equal rights.....so our bhai would rise the kite for us and would give that to us to fly....everyone knew that ultimately it would get cut by some nasty neighbour....but still the fun and laughter attached with it would stay with us for a long time......the way it has stayed all these years with me.....just hoping to fly some these years also with younger kids of the family....and offcourse the sumptous yummy meal is always welcome.....long live the spirit of independence.....meri dilli.....

The mistress of every conqueor

came across something very beautiful about Delhi..written by Perceval Landon..in 1906....Delhi, the mistress of every conqueror of India, Aryan or Afghan, persian, english or moghul, remains unconquered still. over twenty square miles of sun baked plain lie out the debris of her many pasts, relics of her dead and gone masters, some perfect still, some once more crumbling back into the levels of red-yellow marl that have alternately fed and housed, and fed and housed again forgotten generations of men. Yet Delhi lives. Like some huge crustacean, she has shed behind her own outgrown habitations, as she has crawled northwards from Tughlaqabad and Lalkot, through Dinpanah and Ferozabad, till the long, red lizard of the Ridge barred her way, and now she suns herself, a raffle of narrow and congested byways, beneath the crimson walls of ShahJehan's great palacefort. But Delhi is more than her streets and temples.....awesome.....truly awesome....very poetic....

Friday, March 27, 2009

...naye dost...

ammi got me a pet today....probably she feels i need one to relieve the stress in day to day life....the pet is unique and lovable in so many ways....its a pair of small little parrots...a male and a female....female is yellow and i call her piloo...the male is green...but i really dont care to call it anything....i like piloo more....m biased...but piloo looks and behaves like me...i instantly developed a liking for her.....
..its not the first time ammi got me a pet....it has always been a summer vacation exercise during my childhood days....we bachcha party would pool in money and would bring small chicks as pets, or little colorful birds from kabootar market at jama masjid, or pigeons.....fishes....small tortoise....a small very young goat..which abbaji would make sure that its nicely fed....and our mohalla billi never kept us lonely...every few months she used to give kittens....so the house always had a lot of activity to keep us busy......the chicks..rather chooze...has lot of memories...many times they were coloured....and almost everytime their end was sad....the devil bilaao..the dada of mohalla cat society would someday find the chicks alone and would eat them...leaving us sad for few days....there would be so many reasons ammi and taiammi would give to have pets in family....logical as well as illogical....as in they ward off the evil types....but the only one i believe is true is that pets fill our life.....we human beings always have a desire to be needed and feel love..and give that in return....and that way we feel happy....piloo has bought back the vivid beautiful memories of childhood.....m sure now its gonna b a beautiful time....

Monday, March 2, 2009

...nani ka ghar....

today suddenly m missing my nani ka ghar more, its memories are always there....the ghar cant jst get out from the soul....its there always....bt today i m missing it more...its huge sahn..where we have played all through our childhood....a dozen children of the house running, cycling...this sahn has seen all the seasons, festivals, marriages and deaths....sahn been an integral part of the household....a flexible space...which turned into a full fledged dhobi ghat in morning...a full spillover space of the kitchen during meal preparing times, an offcourse how can it be complete without the khat pat of utensils and the spicy gossips of mumanis....they added the zing to the whole thing...come afternoon,....time for us the noisemakers to come bk from school..the sahn would turn into a platform of some railway station....one after the other the huge door would be opened and banged....complete with a loud salaam...so that the whole house wud know who has come...n suddnely nana would shout from his place....aree aram se darwaza band kiya ker....hazaar martaba samjhaya hai....n this wud happen everyday....afternoon siesta time, n our sahn wud be our playground....till evening we wud play....the huge haveli it was....complete with dalan and dar dalan....those beautiful cusped arches and the chajja over them...today how i wish that they should not have sold the haveli....but then...thats how the life is...but even today...while passing even in front of the nani ki gali....i feel a pang somewhere..the biggest house of the mohalla...sold...why......i miss my nanis home...

Saturday, February 28, 2009

Delhi 6

..watched Delhi6 recently...n found it utter nonsense...probably i had gone with very high expectations, the promos were strong enough to take me to the theatre...good cinematography, angles, frames...dats it....it had everything except a good story or something which could really show the culture...i cudnt relate much except at few points.....masakkali....i have seen a neighbour doing kabootarbaazi since the day i could understand the language and make sense of the things...his son do it today....the jalebiwala and the theatrics of telling an incident to the mohalla group.....the visiting of the whole khaandan and acquintances to some patient in a hospital, no matter how big or small the ailment....the gossiping of the females across the walls, through niches and courtyards..and most of the time spreading all wrong info....that is it....i wish there would have been more to the movie....it left so much, didnt do justice i feel.....so many people would have gone to watch it to catch a good glimpse of the labyrinthine city....

Saturday, January 17, 2009

..traffic jams...

purani dilli n its traffic jams goes a long way together. the city which had only the pedestrian movement for its general public and beautiful paalkis for the rich delicate things, horses and such sawaris for the nobles during the time of its inception...today has all kinds of vehicles meandering through its narrow lanes...bumping into each other..hitting, honking...the situation has worsened with the large scale commercial establishments and shops....almost every important lane is laced with some kind of specialized market...harware, books, paper, cards, industrial machines, spices, grains..you think of it and its there....and with trade comes its paraphernaria....thelas, scooters, pullers, loaders, hawkers...everyone contributing to the madness...and the authorities only seem more confused and come out with equally funny proposals....
you sit in a rickshaw with your mom, trying to hold the shopping bags properly on one side, and the rickshaw on the other, lest you will roll down the rickshaw the moment the cycle rickshaw wala tries to stop his vehicle, coz the only way he knows how to stop it is hit the tricycle standing in the row in front of him...n suddenly someone goes bazooka jst next to you, as if driving on the national highway, honking with all the energy ( probably he himself has gone deaf with it)....and there he hits an old lady in burkha or may b a sari....n there goes the typical line.....kambakhat kahin ke, andhe ho gaye hain, allah bhala kare in namuraadon ka.....n you end up laughing only....thats the most beautiful aspect of all this chaos...theres a sense of life even in this meandering chaotic never ending line of rickshaws...

Monday, December 15, 2008

...another dream came to an end.....

one more dream..one more bright sunny hope..turned into a dark ashed reality....why it always end like this i wished to know from my Almighty....bt then realized that the Almighty is busy with the world's problems....n m such an insignificant thing that he doesnt probably see me.......all dat pain, anger, frustrations and the hatred of not doing enough for achieving my ambition...
all dat hopelessness which has unknowingly creeped in somewhere in this always positive person...n how i have gradually closed all doors on myself.....but this is not how i am....i have always risen from my own ashes, literally, so how can i end like this..
....picture abhi baaqi hai.....i ll not let my dreams die like this...it has to be a reality and very soon....n this Almighty knows that I am smart enough to handle my pains and anger and defeats....n i ll turn them into victories again smday with my people around me, giving me the hope and energy to fight it out...with my City's never say Die spirit and be INDOMITABLE......

Thursday, September 4, 2008

dat first roza of friday...

ramazan began with all the gaeity n piousness from 2nd, n me the self proclaimed athiest kept d first fast...the pious and sacred friday fast...this whole practice of fasting has lots of meanings and attributes attached to itself..the feeling of pain of teh poors who go without food, the idea of charity and sharing of resources in different forms to the needy have social dimensions attached to it..apart from increasing ones will power...well the whole instituiton and Islam has such dimensions of the Way of Life.....ramazan bring with them lot of life into the city fabric, esp my city purani dilli comes to life(although its pretty vibrant already)...with all kind of shops n vendors coming to serve different functions of roza...fruitsellers...selling fruits for iftaar....halwai making pakodi n other delicasies for iftaar.....restaurants having a siesta in afternoon and a night long session of serving people till saheri happens....everything as if conveying something...that the religion and its practices are for people to practise and celebrate the happiness in teh small things of day to day life.....n it doubles up in ramazan...long live my city...and the sprit of fasting...

Sunday, August 31, 2008

Train to Pakistan

...spent my whole weekend reading Train to Pakistan....Khushwant Singh has done an amzing job...and the fotos by Margaret have added to the whole feel of the book....what more one asks from the reader at the end of the story, the reader should be left with a thought...n the book has successfully left me lot of soul searching n introspection.....the heart rending scene one see in margaret's fotos....simply stays with you for days altogether....the pain, agony, anguish our people faced at that time cant be comprehended by todays generation but the book has certainly served its purpose....its depressing yet captivating, thought provoking....

Friday, August 29, 2008

Scorching Delhi...

uff....the summer is hot n not just hot..its very hot...the sunshines with all its might here on the whole city...as if penetrating in the body...buildings...burning all that has the courage to stand in its way...it has not been so...the summers had its own charm earlier, with a jhoola in our courtyard, a bhutta party on the terrace, when ammi n other ladies of the house have their afternoon siesta....abbaji sleeping on his cot...n we children enjoying the heat inspite of all this..not caring about tanning, sun burns, fever....it was a beautiful childhood, spent in the lanes of my Phatak, an inconspicuous street in the City of Shahjahanabad.....its only landmark...its Congress party office...the symbol of its importance, its identity....cycling in Phatak, throwing away some traders boxes lying in the Phatak...playing hide n seek on a traders staircase...having a ride in a thela of a fruitseller...oh those were the days....we only knew play in the afternoon...n the best part was, nobody objected to our bonhomie, our chaos, our shouts.....everything happened in its own decorum...and even Summers were enjoyable...it is still enjooyable today but teh decorum and respect is somewhere lost....profanity, fights and vulgar shouts have taken over these young ones delicate minds....i only feel thankful that i was blessed with a huge joint family...with all sisters and brothers around....which gave me my beautiful moments..which i cherish even today...long live Purani Dilli

Thursday, August 14, 2008

Unaccustomed Earth

UNACCUSTOMED EARTH, is the third in the series of her collection of short stories and novel.A beautiful collection of tales about Bengali family life and one’s self-discovery. Although mostly Bengali characters and life style are there in the stories but still they have rich underlying elements of universality, allowing the characters to transcend the immigrant genre. The usage of language, words chosen craftily to paint the whole picture for the reader and the symbolism weaved through words is marvelous and depicts her story telling art nicely. UNACCUSTOMED EARTH is two sections with total eight stories.

The first section contains five distinct short stories, beginning with a story of a father visiting his daughter after a long time, since her mother expired. The story meanders around several issues of mingling of first and second generations of Indian immigrants to America. His visit turns out to be a real good experience for the young child in the family, who ultimately gets the affection of grandparents in the form of the visitor. The little details of gardening, making bed, taking care of the kitchen and daily chores, going out on weekends for simple visits are beautiful. Ruma the protagonist goes through turmoil due to various reasons. The story comes to a sudden poignant end with the finding of a misplaced postcard by her father.
Lahiri's has four more stories in this section with similar themes.

In "Hell-Heaven," a young woman recalls the coming of a Bengali uncle in the family as a family friend and how he finds a place in her childhood and her mother’s life.

In "Only Goodness," the portrayal of a sister who introduces alcohol to her brother and how he ends up as an addict is there. The sister, Sudha, tries to make a bond and care for the younger brother at various occasions but the situations worsen.
This brother, Rahul, turns up again after few years from the rehabilitation camp, at her door to meet her family and her little baby. Things go alright for some time, until one day the baby almost get drowned in the bathing tub, in the absence of parents and passing out of uncle Rahul in the intoxication of alcohol. This leads to an emotional upheaval in Sudha and her realization of her role in turning the life of his brother in this direction.
The second part of the book contains three stories intertwined in beautiful way having two parts from a male and female protagonist each, finally ending in their meeting and 20 years later.

The first story is told by Hema of her meeting Kaushik in childhood when his parents decide to return to Boston after a failed relocation to India. The various tribulations of giving her room to Kaushik, adjustments and expectations from the visitors are very real. But behind all this, there is a tragedy in Kaushik’s family life which nobody knows and the reader comes to know of it in second story by Kaushik.

The last final piece “ Going Ashore” happens twenty years later when the destiny had its way and both Hema and Kaushik meet in a third world, where in the Global world and different careers they meet in a beautiful setting of Rome. The portryal of Hema and Kaushik reflect the change of lifestyles – unrestricted travel, no personal attachments, no family roots, place, culture and non conventional career choices. Kaushik is a photographer of being alone genre, Hema is a researcher of ancient civilization.
The two people meet and suddenly strike a chord, once again destiny brings them together only be separated again after sharing beautiful moments.

In Lahiri’s stories, I have noticed few things starting from Interpretor of Maladies, Namesake and this Unaccustomed Earth, that characters are beside being Bengalis are high achievers, academically decorated with the degrees from MIT, Radcliffe, Harvard, Cornell, NYU, London School of Economics and sinfully rich. The characterization reveals the social practice of mixed marriages like Sudha and Roger Featherhose, Ruma and Adam. But then, if she aspires to write about NRIs, there are others, Gujratis, Kashmiris, Biharis, etc also residing there in large numbers. But if she has a special love for Bengali class, then there must be other Bengalis also, not that well off, highly educated, how about writing about them?

Jhumpa Lahiri is a brilliant writer, gifted with the art of weaving the scenes vividly for the readers, expressing emotions, etc. After I read the book, the general feeling was that of a terrible loss. I could somehow relate to the character of Hema of loving somebody with all her heart and one day the destiny separated the soulmates, leaving a longing desire of having him back, sadly filling the heart feeling what if, If i could, I wish....

The end feeling was of sadness, I literally felt depressed for few days on the loss of Kaushik in the end. That is what I feel the art of writing a story; one leaves the reader so much affected.

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Schadenfreude -pleasure taken from someone else's misfortune.
i realized that this word suits my boss so aptly, that there cannot be another human being on this earth that fits into this whole picture of taking digs and deriving pleasure from other peoples' misery. ...this man tops the list when it comes to exploitation n unequal opportunity to the subordinates, one who only knows how to rule by dividing the subordinates and colleagues...i agree, he is not the only one...but may b coming to delhi from a small place has brought out his this very capability in all its full flavour....now he has more things to acquire on his list...but then one day he will get his due....m sure...Delhi changes people i believe, but i think its upto the person in which direction he would like to change...

Friday, June 13, 2008

delhi's rain

its friday the 13th today....had been a maddening day since morning....running pillar to post n still not accomplising anything....it looked like something wrong will happen any moment...tempers running high on all the ends....n den it rained....happy downpour.....n suddenly everything is beautiful and calm...n den theres this call for prayer....delhi looks very beautiful during rains....spring...chilly winters...n hotty summers...with gulmohar trees standing tall and beautiful in the scorching heat....assuring you everythings not that bad....life is still colorful and bright...